Sometimes all we need in life is to tell whatever it is that we have inside in our heart whether it is happiness or in pain. You want to laugh common share it! You want to cry hmmmp am here for you.
Everyone of us have friends, a best friend maybe or even a partner in life aaah who ever they are what you have in your life even if that is Alien the most important you understand them and they understand you isn't it?
To tell you honestly am in pain….. strange it may seem. But I find myself unexpected random of pains in immeasurable explosion of pity for the seemingly endless failures in countless circumstances. I fear I might not have the chance to recover, but still here I am.... thanks to my family,friends,face book and to farmville hahahhaa my frustration and depression goes to that farm till I dreamed of to have my own in real life.
It feels so down to feel so lost. Wanting to belong but so unwanted. Rejection is indeed the single greatest pains. Desiring to be loved by a heart were only hatred existed. So many questions in life without answer. So many pains, many realities in life cause pains. Give us hurt feelings. Most times they bite deep down our senses.
Why is life so complicated, why do we seem worlds apart, why they don’t ever try to understand me, why they do always bear anger and hatred to every little wrong in me, why they don’t even see anything they consider right. What’s so evil in me that despite trying my best to be good, still they see the worst.
Endless why? Endless trials that result to nothing but errors. Is indeed all of what they picture me to be is nothing but BLUNDERS? Wow too hard to control my tears…….
Hard to control even stop myself from doing things I’ve been used too. It’s even harder not to miss people who are close to me. Going to my favorite place alone made me realize loneliness is not just being alone. Mostly it is missing someone’s presence. Not just someone but a friend presence........
Being able to talk to someone about life is what I miss most. Life is short and we never know till when we would live. Too many fears, some are lucky, others are not. This is life , even if we want to live a happy life fate and destiny are beyond us. I learned thou that if your at the edge we must learn how to survive. There certainly room for a change and am sure not for the worst rather for a better.
I grow older by the day and I must grow in a mature way. If there’s something I want out of life, I'm definitely hoping I get what I want , hmmmp sounds good hahahaha. I cried many times for some reason sometimes I don’t even know what am crying for hahahaha am also a human like you, I can feel what you feel :-)
Here’s the only thing I could share for you for the last time. Everything that happens happen for a reason. I’ll tell you this....
NO PERFECT LIFE, NO PERFECT PERSON, NO PERFECT FRIENDSHIP ETC. We could give up on everything but never give up on GOD.
He already made a way to fulfill the desire of our heart , I fail Him many times but God never forbid me. He will do something to let us know that He is a forgiving God. He do not keep records of our failures, He heals every wound. He allows mistakes to define us who really we are in faith. What I have is a TEARS OF JOY! Because I know God is always there for me no matter what!
To GOD be the glory!!!!!!
God bless u guyz!
Alice Guerrero
